(My riff as a transwoman in recovery on the PurposeFairy series 9 Reasons Why You Should No Longer Care About People’s Approval; all creative credit belongs to to that author.)
I haven’t been blogging as much the last week or so because I simply haven’t had the oomph to do everything. Job searching is the hot priority right now. I did take a little time for me visiting some friends who were camping last weekend, sitting around a campfire getting all smoky and eating s’mores and sharing our mutual amazement at the stunning fall colors and moon.
I have just so much energy to spend and so do you. I want it to go for something that makes a difference. Why spend it on something that I know for certain that will never make a difference?
Seeking others’ approval sneaks up on you. It starts with the nagging sense of never feeling quite rested, never quite on track. Here is how I stop it:
- I listen to what people I trust and I know care about me are telling me. When people ask, “Denise, are you really okay?”, they are asking me if I’m getting off track somewhere. I need to pay attention to other people.
- I think about who I’m calling and emailing. When I find myself spending a lot of time trying to communicate with people I’ve sought for approval, a red flag goes up. I need to pay attention to warning signs.
- Following from 1 and 2, my mind starts to fantasize that all that unhealthy stuff from the past could be different now, that people could really like me if I just [fill in the blank]. I really need to pay attention to what I’m telling myself.
Don’t waste any more time today on seeking another person’s approval that you’re never going to get anyway. It’s the same feeling as when you stop beating your head against a brick wall; it feels so good!